Hi! How are you doing?
I am doing fine!
We are having such a wonderful sunny day despite we are in the rainy season =D.
Since I have been helping people outside
to buy stuffs from Japan for 7 years
mostly people of Hello! Project fans,
I often asked if I am H!P fan myself. As the matter of fact, I am not (>_<)!!
Every time I got asked, I feel like, would it sound all right…..
most of the time it looks all right, so I guess it is ok (I hope!).
The LovendoR live I attended last month (May) was actually the first live I joined.
I really enjoy get to know people from other countries.
I believe this is what I was born with =D.
When I was 4th grade,
my parents house was up on the hill kind of,
so I needed to go up a long steps to get back home from school.
One day of my 4th grade year, when I finished climbing up the long stairs
and I thought
I want to become friends with all over the world.
It is funny why I thought that on that day, but I clearly remember that
I thought it at the top of the stairs (^ – ^).
So without knowing, the situation now is
pretty much the dream comes true situation for little Nozomi.
Pretty neat to think about it.
I will be kind of a long story so I will make this in several posts though,
about 8 years ago,
I made a blog on Japan named “Peep at Japanese Life?”.
Still old articles are there if you are interested in it.
Back then, I was resting at my parents house for depression.
I have had my depression since I was like 18.
Since back at the time, depression was not widely known in Japan
so I did not know what was wrong with me until I got 26 or so.
I happened to pick a book on depression at a book store and read it and found out that the thing
I was having was depression.
Fortunately I am all well know now.
I am not so sure if every one is familiar with the term “dysfunctional family”
but the family I grew up in is one of those and I got depression from the stress the family had.
I believed for a long time that my mother was not able to be happy
because of the birth of my brothers and me.
She stuck with an unhappy marriage because we were born.
I have been basically a cheerful girl, but when something happened,
I don’t thing something was such a big deal objectively, but it got me so deep and made me feel suicidal.
It was because I believed down inside that my birth was not right.
I did not realize that I felt this way until my 32 or 33, it was so deep down myself that I was not aware
that I was feeling that way myself. Might sounds a bit odd? But it was.
That thought of my birth being wrong for my mother was giving me real pain
but when I noticed it, it got all better.
Realizing that my mother being unhappy with her marriage was the choice of her lifted so much of
the burden I was carrying.
Mmmmm….. weird, it is getting somewhere else than the fun I have with associating
with people from other countries, haha! Oh well, I guess it is OK. It is about myself (^ – ^).
And I know there are people out there having the same kind of issues. Good to share I guess.
So early 30s, I encountered the most severe depression in my life and resting
without doing almost nothing.
Just sleep eat, that was about it I did. And then after a while I regained my energy
and thought to write an English blog.
And I did, and I made friends through the blog.
Unfortunately along with the major change on the platform on 20six, the blog platform
I used for blogging, many friends through the blog kind of spread away,
since the usage of the blogging became widely inconvenient.
I still have contact with some of them via facebook but lost contact with many of them. * sad *
Woooo this is getting pretty long so I will write more on the different post.
I met a guy from England through the blog
who was fan of a Japanese band “The Yellow Monkey” :).
He is one of the key person
with what I do now (helping people from other countries buy stuffs from Japan).
~~~~ To be continued ~~~~~